Saturday, July 3, 2010

You silly boys at the Bar


Tonight I went to bar with some girlfriends, to you know, get a drink and bitch about how life is just so not fair these days. One drink lead to six and I found myself on the dance floor dropping it down to some old school Madonna. Good girl's night. I was wearing plaid, it was rainy so I had the frizz going on, I pretty much looked like a drunk Liberian. So as I was getting my "towark" as the college kids say ( 2003 style) on and some "man" came behind me and started rubbing his junk all over my butt like he was Chris Brown or something. I looked at him and told him "Thank but no thanks!" and he completely shrugged an ignored me. He then proceed to do some butt humping without approval.... interesting, I thought, I remember telling him to get F off of me. I smiled, being the sweet southern Belle that I am, and slowly shimmed my way away from his manhood, and you know what he did... took it up a notch and grabbed my waist. In shock, I danced. I accepted the defeat and thought maybe this can be like a friend dance.. you know, he doesn't want anything out of it except for some good ol' entertainment. Umm no that is not how it worked out. He danced until he was done with me and moved to the next chick who looked slightly drunk and liberal. Whoa! I was doing this guy a favor with this sympathy dance, and he moved on so quickly? I was furious, used, and kindof wanted to get all feminist on him. I mean when did it become acceptable for a guy to assume a dance? I mean I might sound old right now, but seriously if you are going to shake your stuff all over me at least say "My name is ........,?" and maybe ask for the dance? Is that too much to ask?

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Running


Running is a religious experience for me.

I dont know why, but when Im running with my ipod in my ear on a trail, I feel more connected to god then any other time. My head is clear and I appreciate everything that that he provided for me. I havnt run in a very long time. This post may be lame, but I needed it, because I have felt so disconnected lately.

So as all of you know I am reaching a cross road in my life and dont really know the next step to take. My mom suggested that I just pray and an answer would come to me, I just have to trust that it will happen. Not to be a pessimistic but how is this suppose to happen. Is there really a God out there that has my life planned out who will protect me and guide me? Sounds unlikely, I mean what have I done for him?

As I was running I stopped and sat on a bench just to take it all in. I wanted to do something the I havnt done in a long time, just pray. stop. breathe. All of a sudden I saw that I was surrounded by all these ducks in the middle of the city. I watched people stop and notice the beauty, take a a picture, and keep on going. It is refreashing to see people in a city stop. I really tried to connect with God and dont know if I felt him, I wanted that spirituality that I am missing. I felt this same way as I stood at the Wailing Wall in Israel. You come to this moment and you expect something to happen and it doesn't, and it makes you feel all alone again. Then I looked down and there was an old Dollar at my foot, I picked It up, and saw the words that I have seen a middle times "In God we Trust" and I knew that everything would work out. I just have to have faith.